Let's see, it's been three weeks since I've began spring clasees. It's a shame how my world revolves around when the school quarters begin. Really, its not all that sad, because this is the life that I chose for myself. In a way, I'm gonna hate to see it go, that is, if I'm really up for graduating in December. It all boils down to one class, the capstone (final) class for my Family Business/Entrepreneurship minor. If it's offered in the fall, then I will have my BBA as the sweetest Christmas present ever, and if it's offered in the Winter or Spring in 05, then that means I can have the degree a early birthday gift.

For the time being, I'm just trying to adjust to taking 19 credits hours of courses this quarter, which I vowed that I would never do in my entire tenure as a college student. Once the tuition has made an official increase for the 04-05 academic year, that swayed me to take on another class instead of taking a third in the summer and paying out of pocket for, or wearing myself down in my possibly final quarter in the fall.

And then the Real World kicks in. Not the tv show, the part of my life where I have to decide on what I want to do for a living, at least for the next 5 years. I'm unsure if there are any people nowadays that stay with one company for 30 years or more. In the generations past, that's how things were, but now people change jobs like they change their drawls (yea drawls, not drawers). These four and some years went by like the previous four years that I endured, also known as high school to many. Sometimes I like to call it hell, cuz I went through many life changing events between 1996 and 2000 in my personal life and school life that it altered my outlook to an extent.

To sum it all up: I just want to find a good career that I won't have to dread going to five days a week.

Somehow the Friday Five from 4-9 (My girl Dezzy's birthday) fits in with this career and school discussion, somewhat anyways:

1. What do you do for a living? I'm a student. I work p-t though, on campus @ the library.

2. What do you like most about your job? The flexibility, I'm going to miss that when I have to find a f-t position somewhere.

3. What do you like least about your job? The occasional gruntwork. Then again, my position is the Student Assistant. So that's what I end up with.

4. When you have a bad day at work it's usually because _____... I'm sick or really tired.

5. What other career(s) are you interested in? Anything creative that's in the music industry. I wanna shine, baby. :)

For now, instead of pondering all of life's questions about my future, I'm gonna go and relax. It's a beautiful day out, and I got my bags packed for yet another road trip. This time, I'm headed to Jersey and NYC for 2 days. Supposed to have been 3 days but things occur for a reason. I'm excited about getting out the state once again! Happy weekend to the 5 people that read this, if that many. I may make a out of town post once I get settled in in Jersey early Saturday morning.


An update to the post from March 14th: I got selected to participate in Study Abroad! I go to Montreal for a week in June! :D Now, that's something to celebrate. Plus, its not that official yet, but I may have an summer internship too, I promised the lady that I interviewed with that I would keep in contact with her during this quarter to let her know of my summer whereabouts. I could definately use the extra money, especially when I get my L's. I'm shooting for a Memorial Day deadline for that one. Now I wonder why I missed all of this in the paragraphs above. Oh well.

Tuition increased maximum amount
Great, now I'm gonna be in more in debt.

Is there another word for being past busy? How about just plain lazy? Or tired perhaps? Well, whatever the case, I've been away for another long while. Classes have been keeping me busy among other things. Kinda dating this guy, but he doesn't have a phone, his brother has it now. I don't know what type of sense that makes, but its not serious anyways. Haven't heard from him in two weeks. That's okay, I'm not in shock or anything. I do have a long time crush to holla at. Because my friend made me realize that catching crushes is the hot thing to do for 2004. She caught hers, so now I'm inspired to catch mines, after all this time. Hey, I can write a song about that! :)

I was hoping to do some creative things, like helping to contribute to a play, but those plans fell through for now. Then there was the whole starting a girl group with two of my friends. Then that fell through before it began, because of or disagreement on management before things even jumped off. They still my hearts though, but we came to the conclusion to agree to disagree on that issue, and made a pact to be supportive of whatever each of us decide to do musically. Actually we made that pact from the get go, but its just more prominent now, ya know. I tried to take my driver's test last Saturday (3/6) and messed up on the manuevering through the cones, which sucked. I am scheduled to go back on Tuesday and my "buddy for all times" has been helping me practice, and I love her for that, especially all the rough spots we've been through over the years (try: not speaking for 6 years, then you'll understand). Some people (like me for example) don't know how much someone is down for you until they come back into your life. It humbles you a lot. I'm not saying that I wasn't humble before, but much more grateful of the people who choose to be in my life. Okay, that's my profound moment for this entry. :-) I just want to get through finals this week! I have two that I have to attend, one on Tuesday and one Wednesday. But there's a take home, open book exam that I have for one of my classes that's due by Friday morning. It's for the Legal Aspects of Entrepreneurship that I'm in. The class is kinda confusing, but then again its about Business Law for small business owners, which is tricky enough in its own right. I'm glad that I changed my mind about going to school to be a lawyer, I think that the terminology alone would have killed me. Not saying that being in the College of Business is any easier. Its frightening in a way, because I may be able to graduate this December! This December, that's a big change from graduating in the Spring of 2005. If I am able to push up my last class (aka Capstone) for my minor in Entrepreneurial Studies/Family Business, I may be actually able to walk in December!!! That's hella frightening to me, because I want to do a few more things upon exiting the University of Cincinnati:
1. Get an internships somewhere!
2. Study abroad- if they still accept my application, granted that I forgot to turn it in Friday!
3. Breathe, take another good vacation or something to clear my mind and get focused
4. Do something musically- actually get a song heard, network, something!!!

I don't know if I can consider this a crisis or more of a crossroads. I guess that at the age of almost 22 would I have to worry about what I want to do with the next 40 years of my life.

"I don't wanna grow up, I'm a grown ass kid..." -Kanye West, Through the Wire

I believe that's how that line goes. I dunno. But its a hot cd, so different than listening to the objectification of women in other rap songs and what not (not claiming that's all of them, but some). He's so different, but yet so accepted. I want to be like that, stand out from the standards but get recognized for being different, and innovative. My goodness, I am itiching to get into the music business. Music is what I love, that's what gets me going in the morning and calms me down at night. It's my life force, and gives me the inspiration to write. Like I'm doing now. It feels kinda strange to actually be posting an entry. Things seem so hectic in my life, but yet so slow going. I am definately in a crossroads in my life, and I'm afraid of the outcome(s) of my decision. So the best thing to now is to put my faith into my judgement and just see what develops.

But for now, I got a paper to finish and to study for. I'm still on my mission. Just trying to do what I gotta do.

catching up on all the F5 posts:

the 2/6/04 friday five:

1. What's the most daring thing you've ever done? Dance on top of the bar the weekend of my 21st birthday. :P

2. What one thing would you like to try that your mother/friend/significant other would never approve of? Earning some Jerry Springer beads.

3. On a scale of 1-10, what's your risk factor? (1=never take risks, 10=it's a lifestyle) Um, a 5?!

4. What's the best thing that's ever happened to you as a result of being bold/risky? I got some cool points for it (see #1). My friend that was with me didn't believe that I would get up on the bar and dance, cuz I said it so many times before that night.

5. ... and what's the worst? Being perceived wrong for what you did/want to do (see #2). I am not trying to be one of the Girls Gone Wild chicks!!!


and the 2/13/04 edition:

1. Are you superstitious? Not really.

2. What extremes have you heard of someone going to in the name of superstition? My Mom- to her placing your purse on the floor means you won't have any money.

3. Believer or not, what's your favorite superstition? The one mentioned in #2 and the one where if you put an open umbrella above your head indoors will mean that you will have bad luck. I tried it once, and its fun opening an umbrella in the house. My Mom didn't seem to think so--I got busted.

4. Do you believe in luck? If yes, do you have a lucky number/article of clothing/ritual? Yes, I believe in it at times. 702 is my number, then again that's my birthdate. :)

5. Do you believe in astrology? Why or why not? They're good for entertainment purposes, but I don't swear on them all the time. Sometimes, your horoscope can be so dead on, but other times it can be way off too.


and as for 2/20/04 and the rest- I'll post them soon.

Once again, its been months and Sundays since I've placed an entry to this site, but I couldn't let this one topic slide:

WCPO Employee Arrested


What's the deal with all these sexual predators in Cincinnati?! I understand it's everywhere it seems like, but there's been a surge in reports on the news about these sexual predators lurking in such public places like grocery stores and chain stores like Wal-Mart and Target. Now, there's a news reporter that's a part of the mix?! It's definately a damn shame.

Talk about a big takeover:MSNBC - Cingular agrees to buy AT&T Wireless I am so sick of Cingular and their contracts. I've been actively thinking about changing my carrier, but keeping my number. I just want a good phone.

More entries to come soon; this is the busy part of the quarter- life has caught up with me.

Late friday five again, oh well:
You have just won one million dollars:

1. Who do you call first?
My Mom.

2. What is the first thing you buy for yourself?
A new (used) car.

3. What is the first thing you buy for someone else?
A shopping spree at the mall.

4. Do you give any away? If yes, to whom?
Probably give some to my hs, and to my community.

5. Do you invest any? If so, how?
I would hide the cash in a matress. Lol, really I would put some in the bank, and put a portion into some steady stocks.

Happy Birthday Mom!

I love you. :)

A very late friday five:
At this moment, what is your favorite...

1. ...song? Yeah, by Usher featuring Ludacris

2. ...food? French Fries, as always. :)

3. ...tv show? American Idol, since it's back on again.

4. ...scent? Bath and Body Works Cool Citrus Basil.

5. ...quote? Cicero: "It is the peculiar quality of a fool to perceive the faults of others, and to forget his own."

Check out the movie at ipodsdirtysecret.com. I think that you'll be pleasantly suprised.

I'm a slacker. I have a legit reason, had a lot of papers due last week, and two today, with the three day weekend! The work never stops, well until I graduate a year from now. Wow, I can't believe that I'm down to my last year. Does that mean that the partying will stop?! I hope it doesn't, there's so much partying to be done!! Anyway, on with this week's, well, last week's Friday Five:

1. What does it say in the signature line of your emails?
It has my full name, and a link to this site.

2. Did you have a senior quote in your high school yearbook? What was it? If you haven't graduated yet, what would you like your quote to be?
Mines was "When one door shuts, another opens." That was my second choice, on account of space; my first pick was a quote from Cicero: "It is the peculiar quality of a fool to perceive the faults of others, and to forget his own." It was my mini backlash about how I felt about some of my fellow classmates. Some of them were so judgemental of others that they never took the time out to take a good look at themselves for a moment.

3. If you had vanity plates on your car, what would they read? If you already have them, what do they say?
Probably 05 Grad or something like that. There are these plates available with the C-paw logo on it for Bearcat fans.

4. Have you received any gifts with messages engraved upon them? What did the inscription say?
No, not yet.

5. What would you like your epitaph to be?
She always tried her best...

Jubilation!
The Bearcats are undefeated! I was wondering when the word "jubilation" (the word that I submitted for the new free words) would show up in any local newpaper articles.

In other things, I've been straight busy since classes began almost two weeks ago. Plus I met a guy, who sees me as wifey material. What's up with the surge of everyone getting married or wanting to get married?! Can't complain that much though, at least I got a holla at the start of this year; things like that don't usually occur for me until the springtime.

Once the rush with classes calm down, I'll post another entry. Until then, I have the urge to take a nap...must...stay...awake...

MTV.com - News -Are B2K Breaking Up?

Well, I hope not! This reminds me of the whole Destiny's Child incident from a few years ago: a talented group of young singers that runs into conflict after getting just a taste of stardom. B2K is a talented group, with a movie that's going to be released later this month. Maybe the recent announcement of lead singer Omarion's solo effort had something to do with the alleged breakup. Then again, Chris Stokes, their manager could be a major factor also. The story is so screwed up and its only a few days old. Bet.com has an updated report on it too.

And as for classes so far, so good. Today was one of my busy days with classes at 9:30, 2 and 3:30, plus work at 11. Hardly had anytime inbetween to grab a snack. If it wasn't for Geology letting out at 3, I wouldn't have been able to grab a sandwich. Trust me, my stomach let me know that I waited too long to eat. I won't be doing that again if I can help from it.

Just a quick post, have to get ready for classes tomorrow:

Happy Birthday Teresa! :)